Wednesday, December 30, 2009

The one where I manipulate time

I started my New Year on December 21st.

To be honest, I was fed up of 2009 and I wasn't looking forward to drifting through the days to Christmas and the New Year.

The shortest day - the Winter Solstice - seemed a good day to begin afresh. At least I knew the days would start getting lighter. And I needed that to look forward to. I need more light.

2009 was a good year in many ways, and had many highlights. But after its early promise it started to drag. The last few months got gloomy.

I needed to earth myself back in again to some simple plans and tasks. To give myself something to work on every day that would help me to get back some kind of orientation.

I read somewhere about "building a business in a year by doing one thing every day". For me, it's not just about business but about all that I aspire to be and do.

Also, by starting on December 21st I would have 375 days in the year, not 365.

It felt like a better number.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Funeral for a friend

For more than 30 years I've been friends with a guy named Simon.

We raised our families together, went on holidays together, worked on projects together.

More than that, he was an excellent friend and a brilliant 'advisor / counsellor' to me personally.

In the last couple of years, knowing that he was ill gave us both a new sense of purpose to our friendship. All of our conversations were positive ... he seemed never to give in to negativity or despair.

As I've begun to reconfigure my life this year, Simon was supportive, helpful and wise. We were working out how he could take on a role as some sort of advisor / director in the business aspects of what I planned to do.

He met me at the airport when I got back from Brazil in August after he'd just been to the consultant.

That's when he knew he'd run out of road.

Over the next few months we saw each other from time to time and he continued to give me good advice and support ... some of which I'm still thinking about.

During that time I've been distracted and dithering.

But he faded fast and his light went out just over a week ago.

This week I attended his funeral.

Today I realise how much I miss him as a friend and what a gap he leaves in what I want to be and do.

Today I'm finding it hard to find the ground beneath my feet.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

It's gonna be a lean Christmas.

Lean, lean, lean.

This year everyone will be getting a stick.

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